I Should Have Known Better

My second opinion with the medical oncologist went HORRIBLE. Essentially he was upset that I sought out the surgical oncologist. He accused the surgical oncologist of giving me false hope and that he shouldn't be giving me such advice since he is a SURGEON and not a MEDICAL oncologist. I am SO SICK of people explaining the difference between a surgical and medical doctor. I am a nurse after all. I might have picked up the difference somewhere down the line. He further more said that radiation or surgery of any kind would not be helpful. Over, and over, and over again he repeated himself to ensure that any hope that I had left was stamped out. He said "why change what is already working?" I dunno...maybe so I can live a longer life?! He also said they'll continue to treat me medically until I no longer respond to the medication. Super. Very uplifting. Thanks for that.

As easy as it would be to give up, I'm not going to. I'm seeking out another opinion at a different hospital. I informed the surgical oncologist of the appointment, and he said they will continue to advocate on my behalf and that medical oncologists tend to be more pessimistic because they see a lot of sad cases. However, he said to keep my chin up, there's a subgroup of patients that do well and there's no reason to believe that I might not be in that group. I just ask that you keep me in your prayers that I find the right "medical" doctor who will help me in this fight! A BIG THANK YOU to the surgeons who are fighting along with me and allowing me some hope in this situation!

Love and prayers,
Holly